Empty Walls

I am like Empty Walls

Burning and Yearning to be filled

Filled with memories and happy times

Yet I remain empty

Like an unwanted room

Possibly a room of a lost loved one you cannot bear to remember

When will you open the doors to my empty walls

When will you remove the years of dirt and dust

Please come fill my walls

I don't want to be forgotten

Letting Go

Lord, Help me to let go of things out of my control, before they consume my life.

Treasure Hunting

This past week I have been meditating and searching for all the blessings in life. I am so tired of always thinking of the things that aren't going right in life. Every night this week while driving home for the night from wherever I may have been I have a smile come across my face just thinking of things that are right with the World. It has been very encouraging to me. These things have ranged from holding a baby named Emma whose family I love dearly and consider family in a lot of ways, to little things throughout the day that have brought joy into my life and I just wanted to take a moment to share these things with you. I have been in the desert for so long searching for the manna of life to sustain everyday life and have realized that God is working in the small things that are so easy to overlook when your so worried about employment, affording your next payment, leaving friends behind, or fretting over relationships. I believe God can work all these things out but that we can't afford to miss the small blessings of everyday. Having a dear friend spend the day with you in the midst of their hectic schedule, being provided for when money is tight and you need a lending hand, realizing people believe in you when you don't always believe in yourself, a warm embrace, the list goes on. My hope in writing this is that it will inspire people to take a step back in their everyday lives and stop to smell the roses, and that anyone reading this that like me is in a desert place waiting to hear from God will have hope and start to hunt for blessings.

Keeping afloat

This past week has been a very humbling as well as hard week for me. There has been a lot of stuff and one of the hardest things for me to realize in all of this is the fact that I'm not alone, I have a community of believers who can reiterate truth in my heart and come to me and help me work through some of these Issues. to that I'm thankful but I just can't leave it there simply because it is so easy for me to forget this and since there are always issues to be dealt with and though choices to be made I cannot forget, and I still have to pay the cost. I have been listening to this song by Glen Hansard lately called Falling slowly the chorus of this song is as follows

"Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now"

Then at the end of the song he sings

"I paid the cost too late....
Now you're gone..."

I have reflected on this song a lot in the past few days because in essence its what I'm experiencing...Its a beautiful picture of us in a sinking boat and we have the choice to point it home while we still have time, or we continue on our path towards the destination ahead hoping we can paddle faster then the water filling the boat. I don't want to pay the cost too late, because we know your going to pay the cost one way or another.